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Moving. =[ [10 Jun 2005|04:49pm]

[ mood | crushed ]

Does anyone here live in Minnesota? Because we may be moving there...it's going to tear me apart, and if I know someone there, well it might, MIGHT make it a tad easier for me. [Doubt it.]


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When your close your eyes, is it hell you see? [24 Apr 2005|02:25pm]

[ mood | hopeful ]

I'm so lonely lately...
I called my ex last night.
It was nice to talk to him again.
I think I will call him again tonight.
Last night he said he hated being alone.
I told him I did too.
I think we might get back together soon.
Unless he still feels the same about the distance.
I hope not. I don't want to be alone anymore.
Wish me luck?

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[24 Mar 2005|09:27pm]

This is the group I made on myspace for Boondock Saints. So anyone who likes Boondock Saints and has a myspace account can join if they wish. Here is the link to the page for anyone who's interested.

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[19 Mar 2005|02:58am]

[ mood | tired ]

The other day we had chinese takeout. My fortune cookie says:
Now is the time to persue that love interest

At lest it's something along those lines. Confused me a bit since my brother talks about 'having his eye on someone' and stuff like that. So I was thinking I got his, but then he said that his was to the point and what not. So I'm not sure. And all the guys I like right now, I'm not sure if they like me like that, or they already have someone, or I don't know if they have someone already. Wouldn't want to feel stupid about that now would I? All these problems. And not a lot of time to deal with them. Any advice on what I should do about that? Or do I just kinda leave it like I did my others, though I do like this one that I have in my wallet also.heh.

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[04 Mar 2005|12:58am]

[ mood | drained ]

Hey everyone, I know you all don't remember me, lol.  Just thought I would say sorry for not being quite as active as some of you people here.  I haven't felt lonely in a while, but I haven't forgotten about the 1st community that I've joined.  Here's something that I've done, comments pwease?


apologies in your absenceCollapse )

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[27 Feb 2005|10:28am]

We broke up, because we didn't feel connected..Thats all I have to say...
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[22 Feb 2005|10:01pm]

Name: Lia
Age: 18
Preference: Bi, with more Lesbian tendencies
Location: Missouri

I don't have any pics right now, but that may change soon.
Friend me, I love being friended and making friends..

Though, I do have a temper, and I do cuss (often) so be prepared for harsh language and blunt opnions..
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[18 Feb 2005|09:20am]

I'm now at a loss of words..I feel so crappy for doing this..I'm planning on how to break up with my current boyfriend.Hes nice and all, but, I'm not feeling anything with him.Its like sitting home alone all the time..he doesn't spend anytime with me at all..And I know he bought me things for V-day..But I don't want material items..I wanted time with him..And school doesn't count..He worked valentines day, while I sat at home staring dumbfounded at the t.v..Oh how romantic that was...Well, I must decide, now or never...
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Well.... [17 Feb 2005|01:20pm]

[ mood | okay ]

I broke up with my boyfriend, thank god. I'm now dating my ex, and I'm happy. The first time in a while. I'm not happy about everything in my life, but I am happy thatI have him. So thank you all who tried to help. Also I think the guy I just broke up with is okay about still being friends. And the guy from Cali doesn't hate me. For now, it's all gravy.

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I don't know what to do...help? [12 Feb 2005|11:55pm]

[ mood | depressed ]

Well I have a "boyfriend". I don't really like him, but he is present, and I like to know I have one, so I'm kinda dating him for shallow reasons. There is this guy, however, that I really like, but he lives in California, and I live in Indiana. He tells me he loves me all the time, and hates that I have a "boyfriend". He trys to get me to break up with him, but I duno if I can. Especially this close to Valentines' Day. He says he will move here to see me when he can (when he graduates). He is going to go to college here, for me. He is going to stop causing harm to himself, for me. He is really great, but I just don't know what to do.

On top of all that, my ex (of two times) is flirting with me again. He is really cool, and we had a lot of good times when we dated the first couple of times. And I have a real connection with him also. So that is worse.

So really my whole debate is whether to date the guy in California, or my ex of previous relationships. I really don't like my "boyfriend" as of now. He just doesn't "turn me on" in the way that I need. I can't see myself kissing him and stuff, and I haven't yet. I don't think I will. I'm sure that after Valentines' Day, a little while after, I'll just tell him it isn't working for me. But I still have to get him something. I have no idea what. So I also need ideas for that. I will prolly ask my friend Heather for help with that. I'm going to see if she wants to go to the mall tomorrow. I do hope so.

So today when I was talking to the guy from California, he was like making me feel bad and stuff, but not on purpose, and I just kept telling him I couldn't do this (have mixed feelings for three people) any more. He had to go for a while, then came back and...SAID SORRY! He said he was sorry for being an ass to me. I about died. Because I was the one being a bitch to him, and he apologized. I know that if he lived closer, there would be no doubt in my mind that I would love him. But there is this little voice in the back of my head telling me that he will cheat on me, or that he is fake, I just can't get over the fact that we are so far away. And I think that every girl wants this...to just be held. No kissing, no fucking, not sexual things in any form. Just to be held by a man/woman (depending on your preference) who loves them with everything they've got. I'm just worried that I will never be held again. I want something close. I've come to the cold hard truth, that I can't stand it when I'm away from someone I love. So I'm forcing myself not to love the guy from California. But I continue to flirt with my ex.

I just need advice, from anyone, anyone at all. Anything anyone thinks, tell me. Tell me anything. Help.

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[06 Feb 2005|02:35pm]

[ mood | crappy ]

"I stand there unheard as the people around me walk away.I look into your eyes...I see your past right through my mind..I scream to you..But you still don't hear me..Why are you ignoring me?These words fly through me.No one notices as I cry..Not you..Not them..No one..No one..Everyone knows I exist, but they just go on..On and on through their lives..I run to you..I shake your arm..You just walk on..Not knowing I love you..I love the way you laugh the way you cry at night..I love your eyes, and I love you mind..But you still don't care as I sit next to you..I'm lost and afraid..I cry when I'm alone..But thats everyday..I'm out of tears to shed..So I cry the red tears that everyone thinks I do for attention.But alas you still don't care..You don't even tell me you hate me...You just stare on pass me..Not giving a single worry,that I'm alive.."

These words I wrote today in my journal..Its a beggining of a story..A sory about a girl..That girl is me..And a boy..The one I happen to be dating..But he knows I exist..But he just doesn't love me the way I wish to be loved..Highschool life is sooo complicated..Erg..

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Is there any salvation...? [03 Feb 2005|06:53pm]

I happened upon your community today..And thought that I would wiish to join it.SO here I am....Check out ....riordion ormelevent08..Or the one I'm posting on..I seem like three people on these journals..Don't I?Well, its true..One is me..The other is my wish..And the other is what people percieve me to be.I aim to please..I have a boyfriend..But I don't feel the love I need. I need lust, desire, powerful love..If any of you know what I mean.Its sad not to feel any of these feelings...Please comment.. 
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since my head weighs about 100 lbs right now... [01 Feb 2005|10:14pm]

[ mood | thoughtful ]

Anyone ever get that feeling that if you disapeared, everyone would be able to function without you. Like you're an extra piece in the jigsaw puzzle of lives?

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[29 Jan 2005|02:56pm]

[ mood | complacent ]

Hey just joined.I'm not a n00b but i have another account that i do most of my real "life" things in. Joined because thought this was a pretty cool thing and had to do with love with which i just lost...but whatever.If you wanna read my livejournal it updated pretty much regularly...

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once upon a time... [29 Jan 2005|11:43am]

[ mood | discontent ]

I basically joined the commnity because I thought your banners were kick ass. But then I read the user info and I agree with it. so here i am. *poof*

I have plenty of friends, all of which are wonderful but they dont realize just how lonley I am sometimes. Listening to them ramble off about their crushes gets very old very quickly. They dont realize how they sound. I suppose that's why they dont ever know how much I like someone because i keep my lovesick chatter to myself.
For some reason I always end up feeling as if I'm at odds with everything. And being at odds isnt fun.


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[29 Jan 2005|10:34am]

[ mood | crappy ]

Hi I joined your community because I can relate to everything you said in the info thing.

I will post more later I promise!

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.:New:. [29 Jan 2005|12:33am]

[ mood | sleepy ]

So I'm new here. I saw the banner on bloodandtears, so I came, checked it out, and joined. I'm in love with love. I love to be in love, and to be loved. I just love love. Period. So I guess I'm in the right place, eh?

So I 'spose I will tell you all a little about myself. My name is Anna. I'm 15. A freshmen, and it sucks pretty bad. I really onlt have like three close friends, and one of them still goes to the middle school, and one goes to a different school compleatly. So it's really messed up. I've been hurt in the past by a guy I rally loved, and he caused me major depression. But I don't blame love. I still love love. I'm just looking for the right person to love.

Fare-the-well fellow lovers,
<3 Anna.

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Stupid Question [23 Dec 2004|03:47pm]

Hey there, I am trying to redo my own journal's layout. I know how to have a background, but how do I set up a url that will work on livejournal? It no workie...

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Second Member [19 Dec 2004|02:32pm]

[ mood | creative ]

Yay! This is the first community I have ever joined. I was actually thinking of making a community myself ((it was gonna be for art and poetry and just a generic support group)), but hey this is good too!

And Mr.6times, you're not alone all of the time, you have me, your love and Angelface. Don't think I didn't see that comment! Just kidding, just kidding, I know what he means. Hell, even I feel alone when I'm around people other than him. There's just this loneliness that he fills in my heart and soul. I know I sound cheesy, but cheese is good!


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[18 Dec 2004|07:22pm]

I'm the first person to join. I should get a special prize or somethin. I joined because even though I might be surrounded by people I feel completely alone inside. I'm tired of feeling alone. Someone love me? =0)

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